I really feel like a zombie.
Period.

This is just a momentary thing.
I have to gather back who I was before.
The line's been crossed.

And goddamn it,I FEEL FUCKING GUILTY NOW.
Put the blame on me.
I won't mind.
Maybe it is my fault.

I had oppurtunities,but I didn't seize it.
More like I couldn't bring myself to do it.
Screwed up,really.
Everything is.

Only God knows how I feel right now.
I need some saving grace.

I really am sorry.
Forgive me.
I don't want to destroy what I have now.
I want to try and save it while I still can.
I had to do it.
I had to.

I really really wish you can understand.
I need you to.
Please.

It's not your fault,it really isn't.
I'm in a very vulnerable position right now.
I'm doing it because I think it's for the best.
I give you my word it's a short one.
A really short one.

Don't cry.
I wish I could tell you the reasons.
I could.
But I'm still getting used to this whole opening-up-and-not-keeping-it-up-inside thing.
Old habits die hard.

I have nothing more to say for now.
I need to gather myself.
Get things straight.

Once again,I'm really sorry.

You know I still do.
Nothing's change.
Happy 5th.
:)

P.S:If anyone has any comments on this post,kindly keep it to yourself.
My blog.
My writing.
My personal opinions/feelings/thoughts.
Period.


I'm not dragging it till it last a month.
It's really short.
Trust me.