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Thursday, May 20, 2010

THIS IS A FINAL POST DEDICATED TO YOU HAMDY.

first, let me clear every single point that you misunderstood on both your status.

Whoever said anything about controlling your life?

I believe you're capable enough of doing that on your own without even your friends helping.

True?

My days of "controlling"your life was over.

yes, i'm not related to you anymore.

Thus, it's over.

But listen, in order to start a fire, there must be a match or any other medium to light it up.

So where you got to now, where did your motivation come from?

At least where did it start.

I'm not saying it was entirely my doing, you did it on your own too (for that, congrats).

Living the way how it's fated to be.

Need i remind you again, who broke up with who?

So in this sense, I AM THE ONE who's leaving MY life the way it's fated to be.

See, wasn't jealousy a huge form of destruction?

I'm not angry at the fact that you're flirting with girls,

at the end of the day, why should i?

I'm angry at the fact that whatever happened after the break up was a series of events that was unfortunate.

There wasn't anything necessary for the matter to blow up, really.

And now i'm angry at the fact that you failed to acknowledge my posts days after the break up.

Yet, you choose to acknowledge it now when it was just one small paragraph.

So what sparked your anger if what i was saying wasn't true?

If you needed to clear it out, there's such thing called sms or MSN.

You putting it on your FB status caused this whole thing to blow.

People who weren't reading and didn't even know my blog ever existed are reading my blog just because you misused the word "we".

There wasn't any "we" to start with,

that paragraph was purely for you and you only.

No one else.

Which brings me to the ultimate question,

why are the rest so worked up over this?

I'm sure a girl like me wouldn't be a problem for you to handle.

So if they're backing you up, don't you feel insulted?

Cause i'm sure you can stand up for your own.

Yeah, shoot me back the answer ,"because they're my friends, they were just trying to help".

Ohh please.

Helping friends comes with a limit.

You need to know when to help and when to leave the matter alone.

The second status,

never caused chaos huh?

I'm pretty sure that's bullshit.

Because as far as i recall,

there were a lot of chaotic moments when me and Gada got super close.

See, you guys were doing it,

we were the one receiving it,

maybe that's the reason why you don't remember leading to that statement being said,

but victims never forget.

We lived our own lives after that.

We ignored.

That's why things were calm and cool for a few months.

We were on talking terms.

We could co-exist.

Now you're saying that Gada and I don't know what's going on in your life.

Did it occur to you that you said i'm not related to you anymore, thus,

getting to know your life story would be pointless.

And Hamdy,

if i had lost all sense of respect for you,

i wouldn't have asked for your permission the other day.

Remember you told me,

"I'm not going to go to your FB profile or your blog anymore."

So what happened to that?

Why now back out of your words?

So yes, i've got that done with.

Now, i'm putting this across.

Who was the one who consistently repeated this line,

"You should get together with Gada, just get together. "

Who was the one?

I am together with him now.

No regrets.

My life changed for the better, Alhamdullilah.

Things would have been fine if we left it right.

But what made me burst out after the break up was,

"ya lah, lepas break up happy2, i sit there, one corner nangis mcm budak sial."

Danial was there, Gada was there.

Ask them.

Why the hell am i bringing this up?

Because i'm holding a grudge on you because of this.

Other than that, i'm fine.

I want you to realize the fact that people are getting the wrong idea,

because of the wrong usage of words.

These people didn't even have to be involved.

But they chose to and i find it totally unnecessary and worthless.

Yes, you may be an outsider looking on with criticism,

but do you have to rub salt onto the wound?

That was a rhetorical question,

i don't need an answer.

So if the rest needs an explanation, i'd give all of you one alright.

Zaman said we were childish.

So if we were,

why are the rest of you stooping to our level of childishness and bother to actually entertain what is going on?

People who liked the status nonetheless, you're part of it.

Yes Nina, you too.

I don't get why you have to like it.

Never once did it ever cross my mind that you're that kind of person.

I explained that i didn't have anything against you the other day.

And you said, alright, fine.

Okay, matter left to rest.

And now i see this.

Disappointing.

I have a reason for severing our ties.

Because if i hadn't things wold have gotten worst.

I don't have time for you, neither do you have for me.

Cause face it, we're both busy.

And will be busier by the day.

If you wanna ask,

"why do you have time for Gada then?"

Simple.

Because i know his schedule very well.

Because he actually, willingly wants to come to my place to study and hang out.

He willingly fetch me from school even when i said it's okay.

Because he so willingly wants to make time and because the institution we're from,

is similar.

Only the curriculum is different.

And our timetables fits.

This is personal, but i think it's necessary.

Even before school started,

i told him that time would be a problem.

And that we would have to sacrifice.

Hey,

i still don't have freedom.

Remember that.

Sahidah, i'm not surprised.

We never did get along well,

i have to admit.

Cause we have our differences.

Enough said.

And Rahmat, you want honesty?

Honestly, i think you talk too much.

You're asking me to shut my trap, why don't you shut yours?

I know what you've done to girls.

So if you wanna act all holy and innocent,

please stop.

No one's buying it.

And Gada is matured enough to think for his own.

I knocked sense out of him huh?

Sure, that's your opinion.

Gada didn't choose to interfere,

he was already involved.

He isn't backing me up.

This is his fight, always has been.

Zyke, who's the bitch that made YOU an asshole?

I see no point in trying to talk to you.

Because one,

you're so big headed that you would never want to back down.

Two,

because i don't have any thing to prove to you.

I don't have to.

So if you still want to stoop to our "childish" behaviour , be my guest.

Khairul,

i've got nothing against you.

And i've got nothing to say to you.

Again, if you choose to still interfere,

go ahead.

Kering,

Hahahahahaha!

No comments.

Raqiib,

dude, i really have nothing against you.

Like the rest, go ahead and do what you feel like doing.

All the best.

After all these,

i'm not going to be bothered anymore.

I don't see you guys around anyway.

So why should i?

And your impressions don't matter.

I've chucked all you people aside.

So after this,

if you still want to pursue this matter,

kindly talk to the wall.

Cause when i say i don't entertain, i really mean it.

Sakit kan hati korang je kan kalau berbual orang tak layan.

One more thing,

thanks for actually entertaining us.

It proves that it still means something.

Hamdy,

if you need to clear things up, contact me.

There's no need to put it on your status.

It's just between you and i.

if you want the rest to know, you want your friends to know,

you can tell them by word of mouth after that.

FB's status's box is insufficient for your piece of mind anyway.

And you wouldn't expect me to reply there.

I believe i've said what i wanted to say.

This ends here.

Goodbye people.

ps: the post after this would be Gada's.

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